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Wednesday, April 2nd, 2008
1:13 am	might happen I feel like I might pick this up again. I guess I should probably get a clean slate. Seeing that Id like to have a different start on things. Be nice to see some comments if anyone would like to keep in touch. As ill probably be making a new journal. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, April 21st, 2006
4:40 pm	tiny break through. Ive been listening to music since 9 o'clock this morning to now. It helpped me feel a bit better but I think some fresh air and exhausting heat waves might do the trick for me. I have nothing in my wallet but a twenty dollar bill and since I have no one to use it on. Its all going to my stomach. I seem to have lost my ID. But the chances of me being mauled beyond recongnition by a gang of rabid racoons/girls dont seem very likley. So I dont really need to worry about that. I also dont plan on doing anything illegal either. I seem to be at a fork in the road though (well its more of a T-shaped than fork shaped). I think Ill just go both ways. I have enough time for each destination. I still need to manage it well. wow that was kind of optimistic. Current Mood: blah Current Music: Album of the Year (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 20th, 2006
9:31 pm	Id give you everything you want for just a little peace of mind. I guess I cant expect to keep anyone interested for so long. I should know by now when to back off. I guess Im fine with that, or I will be at least. eh anyways I practiced driving again, I did a horrible job. I almost ran my brothers friend over, I ran a stop sign, and I bumped into my dads car while parking. Im going to try to stick with it though, cant give up on this. I normally would by now. Im so sick with being a timid guy. Being at least a little bit more outgoing would be a great help to me right now. I really wanna leave everything/everyone behind sometimes. Who doesnt feel that way though? on a lighter note. I took a walk tonight. After ten minutes I took a break and sat on a bench and looked at the stars (sounds cheesey but its alot prettier than looking at huge houses). While I was sitting a tiger came up and sat on my lap. She was annoying and nice, so I named her Logan. Current Mood: disappointed Current Music: Islands - human (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 19th, 2006
8:16 pm	I dont think I ever knew anyone as well as I thought I did. I feel really silly and embarassed now. (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 16th, 2006
12:16 pm	I wanna get better at being me. Im open to suggestions. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 13th, 2006
2:33 pm	I get sick every night I hang out with people. I hope Im not allergic to friends or anything. If thats so, then I guess its worth the belly aches and the stuffy nose. Current Mood: sick (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 8th, 2006
9:32 pm	Sea captain in need of companions I think adventures are alot more exciting than parties. I just wish more people agreed. Current Mood: anxious Current Music: the pixies - mr. grieves (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 6th, 2006
5:48 pm	I finally sat down last night and startedd drawing again. I started off with some simple cartoon ideas to get me started, and then moved on to facial features (lips nose eyes blah blah). While that doesnt sound very productive, it kind of helpped me get off of the artists block I've been going through with for the past few weeks. If I only had a steady amount of supplies and some inspiration to spark something. I could get back on the ball and make up for the year I wasted. I keep having doubts that it might be a lost cause. My Dad keeps telling me that Im not passionate about anything, that really makes me upset. Despite my recent change in attitude. I still think I wait around too much. Ive made a tiny improvement. But I know I can do better. I guess I still have fears that I might miss out on something. I have a history of being at leaving the right place at the wrong time. Of course I cant think like that though. I just need to stop thinking so much. Ive been kind of good about that latley, well Ive gotten better I think. I mean. dont think. yeah :P I think I might take a walk to the park tonight or tommarow. I kind of have alot of energey, I need to put it to good use. If anyone in lj world would like to hang out sometime this week. Be sure to let me know and Ill try to make something work! Current Mood: good (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 30th, 2006
8:40 pm	Im kind of hoping for faster paced weekend to make up for the slowness of this week. I guess Ill have to try to do something about that. I didnt do much of anything yesterday or today. But Im still not going to give up on opperation: re-build self esteem. Things will be okay. I just know it. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 29th, 2006
7:42 pm	Parenting must be difficult. I get upset easily. (Comment on this)
Monday, March 27th, 2006
10:44 pm	baby steps Today wasnt too productive for me. these past two days went by pretty fast. I mostly spent them day dreaming and napping. It was kind of relaxing. I went on a walk because the weather was nice. I also dont know the sun very well, and I dont think he knows me much either. Id like to be more acquainted with him. I have noticed that he usually gives my skin a rough time. But this is the "sunshine state" after all. I cant hide under the shade forever. On my way home. A woman asked me to help her husband push her car into a different parking space. So me, her husband (i guess) pushed her car into a spot while this guy john steered. John was also bigger than me, go figure. I felt kind of good about that. Even though the other person was pushing most of the car. Tommorow Im going to learn how to drive. I hope that goes well. I think the only time I was ever behind a wheel was at an arcade. And I wiped out while playing. Im really hoping for this week to help me progress into being a better person. Even if its just small improvements. Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: wilco - humming bird (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 26th, 2006
3:21 am	I really wish i could sleep. Im feeling kind of sick. on top of that one of may cats was sleeping on my pillow, hes a strange cat and has alot of battle scars on him. Im kind of scared of him so I slept on the oppisite end of my bed, wich was very uncomfortable. Then once I started feeling sleepy, my bro walked in with a few kids and woke me up. now a few hours have passed and i woke up to make something to eat. My thinking-2-about-stuff habit doesnt really help either. Im really cold and the AC just kicked on. so Im going. Current Mood: sillysleepysick Current Music: the beatles- im only sleeping (i wish : { ) (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 25th, 2006
11:37 pm	Im kind of content with tonight. I really need to stop thinking so badly of myself. I think its workable. yes i said workable.. now THATS wordiology. Current Mood: sick (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 23rd, 2006
11:04 pm	Chasco fiesta is happening soon. As scarey I think port richians are.(pirates..meep!) i really wanna be around people, wether i hate them or not. Im too lazy to type correctly (like i EVER do..) I really dont think i shodulve drank tonight. I really wish i liked everyone. everyone should be liked. and im sick of being hateful Current Mood: tipsy i guess? im not sure. (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 19th, 2006
7:32 pm	pretty much the theme song for this week IM SO LONLEYYY WANNA DIEEEEE IM SOOO LONLEAAAAAYYEE WANNA DIIIIEEEE IF I DEAD ALREADYYY girlyouknowthereasonwhy. Current Music: take a guess...i dare you (Comment on this)
Friday, March 17th, 2006
11:36 pm	I dont understand why Im so needy. I walked up to sims park today to see if someone maybe there. ANYONE even. I think I deserve a swift knock in the head. Because I really need to get out of this mood. theres an ant on my table giving me a mean look. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
3:47 am	I had another weird dream that had to do with a girl I use to like during high school. I woke up with half of my body asleep, I had trouble straightening out my arm. It seems like things like this is the only spontanious thing that happens to me anymore. I feel really strange, I dont understand it. Tom is going to go party tommarow, but I have other plans. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 15th, 2006
7:56 pm	I think I should give up on music. Since all the other musicians gave up on me. Current Mood: bummed (Comment on this)
11:09 am	I just had a dream that a girl turned me down when I asked her out. So much for the saying "in YERR dreams boi" Current Mood: silly (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 12th, 2006
12:42 am	Clyde: TAKE THIS COPPERS *GAGAGAGAGA* Well tommarow morning Im filling out a Holly wood video application. I hope it works but I have serious doubts. If this doesnt work Im seriously considering taking up a life of crime. It seems to be working well with my brother. So if anyone is game for the title of "get away driver" let me know in a few days. It will probably take me a while to find a scarey mask and one of those bags with the $ symbol on them though. I wanna sleep but my brother has kids in my room. Im getting a headache. So I guess I will just go wander around the house like I do every other day. Current Mood: arrow in my head :| Current Music: Oranger - mother of all my pain (Comment on this)